Confessions Of A Gay Ex-Priest, Who Pens A Prayer To The Pope

Andres Gioeni
Andres Gioeni
Lígia Mesquita


Andrés Gioeni, a 41-year-old Argentinian man, served as a priest in Mendoza, Argentina, for more than two years before giving up the cassock. Now working as an actor, director and writer of children's plays, he lives with his boyfriend of more than nine years, Luis, in Greater Buenos Aires' San Isidro. He recently wrote an open letter to Pope Francis via Facebook asking him to help the gay community to discover how they “can go forward in their faith” without renouncing their “experience of love.” Here, Gioeni tells his story and shares excerpts from his note to the pope.

As a child, I studied in a Marist school. I told myself I would never be a priest. My family was Catholic but not too religious. I became involved with a group of missionaries, and we volunteered in a poor neighborhood of Mendoza, 1.1 kilometers from Buenos Aires.

At that time, I was dating a girl named Carmen. We had plans to marry and move to Africa to work as missionaries. People in this neighborhood were telling me that the area badly needed a priest, so although I had been studying to get into medical school, I changed directions and decided to enter the seminary.

When I began, there were 12 seminarians, though only four became priests in the end. And of those, only one remains a priest.

I spent eight years at the seminary. I never felt lonely because I had a family there. But when I became a priest at age 27, things became difficult. I realized that it was not so easy, that I had big responsibilities and that I was on my own. Yet I enjoyed celebrating mass.

It was then that I became aware of what was happening to me, something that seemed unnatural to me. I was condemning myself. At the seminary, the question of homosexuality was only mentioned in a few lessons. It was taboo in everyday life.

Looking back today, I see that I was vaguely aware I was gay during my seminary days, but I was denying it. If I noticed that I was attracted to someone, I would restrain and question myself.

There were two fellow seminarians who expressed interest and wanted to date me. I thought this was crazy and rejected their advances. They eventually left the seminary, while I stayed on. It wasn't until I was already a priest that I could finally admit to myself that I was gay.

I liked to anonymously enter gay chats. I would later repent, swearing to myself that I would never do it again. One day, I met a man I had known from a chat. We talked for five hours, and I didn't say a word about being a priest. We ended up having sex.

It was a beautiful experience. But the next day, I started to think I would be condemned to hell and felt like the worst sinner in the world. I prayed and cried — a lot. I went to confession without disclosing that I was, myself, a priest. I told myself, “It's over. It will pass, but it can't happen again.”

But it didn't pass. I started to wonder if it was something temporary or if it would last forever. When I realized it would be forever, I severed ties with the Church.

I moved to Buenos Aires and started a new life. I was asked to do some nude photo shoots for a gay magazine. Then I spent a year working as a waiter in a gay nightclub. It was very difficult to admit, for me. For 30 years I was told that what I was experiencing — being gay — was seen as a grave sin in the eyes of God.

But my God was not like this. He kept on loving me and following me, regardless of my homosexuality.

I have been living with Luis for more than nine years. We would like to officialy get married, but adopting children is not in our plans.

I keep believing in God, but not the one the Church presents, not the one who condemns. I was happy when Bergoglio became Pope Francis. He is an open-minded person, and when I heard what he said while coming back from Rio de Janeiro, I realized it was time for me to write to him. I posted something on Facebook and asked my friends to share it and help me make the letter reach him. Here is some of what I wrote:

“I dare to speak on behalf of a large portion of people who belong to the gay community. And simply, humbly, ask you to firmly encourage, stimulate, promote and accompany a deepening in sexual moral theology about homosexual people.

I do not ask that the Church change its catechism overnight on this subject. I simply ask you not to stigmatize those theologians and pastors who dissent in response to an unsatisfactory pastoral doctrine for many of us.

I'm not asking you to oppose the extensive tradition that speaks of sins against nature, but I ask you to revise and expand the concept of nature.”

The catechism can no longer say that being gay is an abberation. I know that changes do not take place in only one day. But I hope that 30 years from now, a boy will be able to openly claim he is gay without fear.

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7 Ways The Pandemic May Change The Airline Industry For Good

Will flying be greener? More comfortable? Less frequent? As the world eyes a post-COVID reality, we look at ways the airline industry has been changing through a pandemic that has devastated air travel.

Ready for (a different kind of) takeoff?

Carl-Johan Karlsson

It's hard to overstate the damage the pandemic has had on the airline industry, with global revenues dropping by 40% in 2020 and dozens of airlines around the world filing for bankruptcy. One moment last year when the gravity became particularly apparent was when Asian carriers (in countries with low COVID-19 rates) began offering "flights to nowhere" — starting and ending at the same airport as a way to earn some cash from would-be travelers who missed the in-flight experience.

More than a year later today, experts believe that air traffic won't return to normal levels until 2024.

But beyond the financial woes, the unprecedented slowdown in air travel may bring some silver linings as key aspects of the industry are bound to change once back in full spin, with some longer-term effects on aviation already emerging. Here are some major transformations to expect in the coming years:

Cleaner aviation fuel

The U.S. administration of President Joe Biden and the airline industry recently agreed to the ambitious goal of replacing all jet fuel with sustainable alternatives by 2050. Already in a decade, the U.S. aims to produce three billion gallons of sustainable fuel — about one-tenth of current total use — from waste, plants and other organic matter.

While greening the world's road transport has long been at the top of the climate agenda, aviation is not even included under the Paris Agreement. But with air travel responsible for roughly 12% of all CO2 emissions from transport, and stricter international regulation on the horizon, the industry is increasingly seeking sustainable alternatives to petroleum-based fuel.

Fees imposed on the airline industry should be funneled into a climate fund.

In Germany, state broadcaster Deutsche Welle reports that the world's first factory producing CO2-neutral kerosene recently started operations in the town of Wertle, in Lower Saxony. The plant, for which Lufthansa is set to become the pilot customer, will produce CO2-neutral kerosene through a circular production cycle incorporating sustainable and green energy sources and raw materials. Energy is supplied through wind turbines from the surrounding area, while the fuel's main ingredients are water and waste-generated CO2 coming from a nearby biogas plant.

Farther north, Norwegian Air Shuttle has recently submitted a recommendation to the government that fees imposed on the airline industry should be funneled into a climate fund aimed at developing cleaner aviation fuel, according to Norwegian news site E24. The airline also suggested that the government significantly reduce the tax burden on the industry over a longer period to allow airlines to recover from the pandemic.

Black-and-white photo of an ariplane shot from below flying across the sky and leaving condensation trails

High-flying ambitions for the sector

Joel & Jasmin Førestbird

Hydrogen and electrification

Some airline manufacturers are betting on hydrogen, with research suggesting that the abundant resource has the potential to match the flight distances and payload of a current fossil-fuel aircraft. If derived from renewable resources like sun and wind power, hydrogen — with an energy-density almost three times that of gasoline or diesel — could work as a fully sustainable aviation fuel that emits only water.

One example comes out of California, where fuel-cell specialist HyPoint has entered a partnership with Pennsylvania-based Piasecki Aircraft Corporation to manufacture 650-kilowatt hydrogen fuel cell systems for aircrafts. According to HyPoint, the system — scheduled for commercial availability product by 2025 — will have four times the energy density of existing lithium-ion batteries and double the specific power of existing hydrogen fuel-cell systems.

Meanwhile, Rolls-Royce is looking to smash the speed record of electrical flights with a newly designed 23-foot-long model. Christened the Spirit of Innovation, the small plane took off for the first time earlier this month and successfully managed a 15-minute long test flight. However, the company has announced plans to fly the machine faster than 300 mph (480 km/h) before the year is out, and also to sell similar propulsion systems to companies developing electrical air taxis or small commuter planes.

New aircraft designs

Airlines are also upgrading aircraft design to become more eco-friendly. Air France just received its first upgrade of a single-aisle, medium-haul aircraft in 33 years. Fleet director Nicolas Bertrand told French daily Les Echos that the new A220 — that will replace the old A320 model — will reduce operating costs by 10%, fuel consumption and CO2 emissions by 20% and noise footprint by 34%.

International first class will be very nearly a thing of the past.

The pandemic has also ushered in a new era of consumer demand where privacy and personal space is put above luxury. The retirement of older aircraft caused by COVID-19 means that international first class — already in steady decline over the last decades — will be very nearly a thing of the past. Instead, airplane manufacturers around the world (including Delta, China Eastern, JetBlue, British Airways and Shanghai Airlines) are betting on a new generation of super-business minisuites where passengers have a privacy door. The idea, which was introduced by Qatar Airways in 2017, is to offer more personal space than in regular business class but without the lavishness of first class.

Aerial view of Rome's Fiumicino airport

Aerial view of Rome's Fiumicino airport

Hygiene rankings  

Rome's Fiumicino Airport has become the first in the world to earn "the COVID-19 5-Star Airport Rating" from Skytrax, an international airline and airport review and ranking site, Italian daily La Repubblica reports. Skytrax, which publishes a yearly annual ranking of the world's best airports and issues the World Airport Awards, this year created a second list to specifically call out airports with the best health and hygiene standards.

Smoother check-in

​The pandemic has also accelerated the shift towards contactless traveling, with more airports harnessing the power of biometrics — such as facial recognition or fever screening — to reduce touchpoints and human contact. Similar technology can also be used to more efficiently scan physical objects, such as explosive detection. Ultimately, passengers will be able to "check-in" and go through a security screening anywhere at the airports, removing queues and bottlenecks.

Data privacy issues

​However, as pointed out in Canadian publication The Lawyer's Daily, increased use of AI and biometrics also means increased privacy concerns. For example, health and hygiene measures like digital vaccine passports also mean that airports can collect data on who has been vaccinated and the type of vaccine used.

Photo of planes at Auckland airport, New Zealand

Auckland Airport, New Zealand

Douglas Bagg

The billion-dollar question: Will we fly less?

At the end of the day, even with all these (mostly positive) changes that we've seen take shape over the past 18 months, the industry faces major uncertainty about whether air travel will ever return to the pre-COVID levels. Not only are people wary about being in crowded and closed airplanes, but the worth of long-distance business travel in particular is being questioned as many have seen that meetings can function remotely, via Zoom and other online apps.

Trying to forecast the future, experts point to the years following the 9/11 terrorist attacks as at least a partial blueprint for what a recovery might look like in the years ahead. Twenty years ago, as passenger enthusiasm for flying waned amid security fears following the attacks, airlines were forced to cancel flights and put planes into storage.

40% of Swedes intend to travel less

According to McKinsey, leisure trips and visits to family and friends rebounded faster than business flights, which took four years to return to pre-crisis levels in the UK. This time too, business travel is expected to lag, with the consulting firm estimating only 80% recovery of pre-pandemic levels by 2024.

But the COVID-19 crisis also came at a time when passengers were already rethinking their travel habits due to climate concerns, while worldwide lockdowns have ushered in a new era of remote working. In Sweden, a survey by the country's largest research company shows that 40% of the population intend to travel less even after the pandemic ends. Similarly in the UK, nearly 60% of adults said during the spring they intended to fly less after being vaccinated against COVID-19 — with climate change cited as a top reason for people wanting to reduce their number of flights, according to research by the University of Bristol.

At the same time, major companies are increasingly forced to face the music of the environmental movement, with several corporations rolling out climate targets over the last few years. Today, five of the 10 biggest buyers of corporate air travel in the US are technology companies: Amazon, IBM, Google, Apple and Microsoft, according to Taipei Times, all of which have set individual targets for environmental stewardship. As such, the era of flying across the Atlantic for a two-hour executive meeting is likely in its dying days.

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