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Wartime News And French Sunshine: A Cry In The Dark For My Precious Ukraine

Our Ukrainian journalist has another job to help pay the bills: at a luxury hotel in the South of France. It brings the stark contrast of her life right now, and the risks facing her native country, into desperately sharp relief.

Photo of a sand castle with the Ukrainian flag on top

A sandcastle with the Ukrainian flag on top

Anna Akage

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Every day we produce a news digest about the war in Ukraine. Every day, my colleagues and I scour dozens of news sources across multiple languages; and drop what we find in the same Google Doc: the latest reports from the frontline, from Donetsk and Kyiv and the Kremlin, from Washington, Brussels and Beijing. And every day, it winds up on your screen. Day 30. Day 72. Day 146.

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For four months now, in addition to contributing to this chronicling, and writing and translating articles from my native country, I have also been working as a part-time receptionist in a hotel. It’s a five-star hotel in the south of France, the place I’ve called home for the past three years.


This other job requires that I solve problems guests may have with their bookings for Mediterranean cruises or appliances that don’t work in their rooms, I reserve restaurants and order diet food for vacationing dogs. The job requires that I do my work with a smile — I smile all the time at my other job.

Night shifts and first editions

When I work night shifts, I get the first print edition of The New York Times international edition. Lately, I don't know exactly how I feel when the front page doesn't feature coverage of Ukraine, of the tanks and artillery, of dead bodies and destroyed houses in my country, of my people.

They say you get used to everything. This is the worst thing in journalism: not the habits of the journalist, but the habit of the topic. We know the reader gets tired if nothing new happens for a long time. No, the daily killing and destruction in my country is no longer new.

It's a truth that, every day, makes me sick to think about. Even I sometimes wish I could take a day off from reading the news. But I read it anyway.

Every day it hurts my cheekbones to smile at people with plump wallets from stable democracies. Every day to read the news about the bombings. Every day to count down a new day of the war, knowing that the reader is growing tired of this “story,” that there is no end in sight, that we are in this habit of just listing, fixing, but not in a position to analyze, much less predict.

Photo of parasols on the beach

Parasols on the beach in southern France

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What guests will say

When they find out that I am Ukrainian, the hotel guests react in different ways. Some want to reach out and take hold of my hand, most sigh and make those dog eyes, other cringe, and my "favorite" tell me directly to my face that this is just another Afghanistan, where America and Russia play out their political games.

I sometimes wish I could take a day off from reading the news. But I read it anyway.

Even I sometimes wish I could take a day off from reading the news. But I read it anyway.

The bridges and castles lit up in yellow and blue, the heat, the ash from the sky from the forest fires, the crowds of tourists, the millions of ice cubes in thousands of cocktails at hundreds of tables. The sun of southern France has never burned so brightly.

And right here, right here in my fatigue and displacement, in my everyday dreams, they are flying, flying nonstop these blind fucking rockets. Flying and falling on children, on flowers, on roads, scraping scars on my heart and my body.

A warm body

Why don't they march as infantry, fight our boys, look the enemy in the eye. Sons of bitches. But no. Flying and flying, God, every day these rockets fly.

They crash into the festival, into the hot beach, into the bright swimsuit, the sweating summer glass, tearing through the crowds of innocence, scattering posters over the streets that just a second ago were so alive.

If I could just shut up all these mouths from where the news of death keeps coming. If I could just stop them from screaming and spitting in my face, stinging my body. A huge body, warm. The tender body of my Ukraine.

And life goes on. You get used to everything, even the most extreme contrasts. Simultaneously here and there. Cutting in with screams and blood, bursting with laughter and music.

Sun and death.

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How U.S. Airlines Are Doing Cuba's Dirty Work On American Soil

American and Southwest Airlines have been refusing to allow Cubans on board flights if they've been blacklisted by the government in Havana.

How U.S. Airlines Are Doing Cuba's Dirty Work On American Soil

Boarding a plane in Camaguey, Cuba

Santiago Villa

On Sunday, American Airlines refused to let Cuban writer Carlos Manuel Álvarez board a Miami flight bound for Havana. It was at least the third time this year that a U.S. airline refused to let Cubans on board to return to their homeland after Havana circulated a government "blacklist" of critics of the regime. Clearly undemocratic and possibly illegal under U.S. law, the airlines want to make sure to cash in on a lucrative travel route, writes Colombian journalist Santiago Villa:

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Imagine for a moment that you left your home country years ago because you couldn't properly pursue your chosen career there. It wasn't easy, of course: Your profession is not just singularly demanding, but even at the top of the game you might not be assured a stable or sufficient income, and you've had to take on second jobs, working in bars and restaurants.

This chosen vocation is that of a writer or journalist, or perhaps an artist, which has kept you tied to your homeland, often the subject of your work, even if you don't live there anymore.

Since leaving, you've been back home several times, though not so much for work. Because if you did, you would be followed in cars and receive phone calls to let you know you are being watched.

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